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#Confession 1

2012-01-15T22:21:00.001+08:00

Honestly,

I'm tired of all the drama that I'm going through now. Every single shit is pushing me closer to the edge of getting depression/suicide thought. If only there's a day we could just survive without any drama in our life, I guess it'd be more than perfect.

But then again, no one dies a virgin, life fucked us all. So true. #Fml.

Haitus

2012-01-11T11:09:00.001+08:00

Dear blog,

I'll be neglecting you for a couple of days. Please understand because 1) I'm sick and 2) I'm so tied up with school. I promise I'll drop by more often when I'm using laptop at home.

With love, me ♥
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Ice cream for you?

2012-01-04T22:41:00.011+08:00

I spend a small bomb at SASA today and the person damn nice. She gave me complimentary makeover. So for Kyla's sake, I requested for smoky eyes to be done, so she would learn how to do. I even went out for a few hours after that with the make up on. She treated me to Häagen-Dazs because I was feeling a little low and we or rather she spam my phone using the GIF Shop. Damn fun! Hehehe.

Hello 2012,

2012-01-01T23:28:00.002+08:00

Goodbye 2011 and hello new year.
I hope you'll treat me better this year. I promise to be a good girl, I swear (cross my heart).
How did you all spend your countdown this year?
Mine was boring, really boring. But some people did make it well ;)

I spent mine at Siloso Beach by earning moolah, meeting new people and even went up on *******. Thou shall not be name because it's damn awkward, I swear :(
xx

Will post all my 2011 thoughts another time.

Goodbye

2011-12-28T23:54:00.001+08:00

You know, I suck at farewell. I hate farewell parties and had never once attend any before. I chose not to. Be it how close I'm towards the person who's leaving, I just don't like bading goodbye. It's like saying "Till we meet again, but not knowing when." Just sucks so badly. Makes my heartache (depending on how close I'm with the person) and I'll cry no matter what.

The last farewell party that I supposed to attend was like a few years back? It was held because a very dear friend of mine was migrating to Canada. And god knows when would he come back. I chose not to attend no matter how the rest had asked, and even begged, me to go. I was so stubborn. Guess what. Even when I did not attend, I still cried at home. It was such a huge blow towards me. Everyone of that clique was like my elder siblings, and as always they had treat me like their little sister. I'm always protected by them, living in a bubble created by them. But, that was the past. As that friend left for Canada, everyone started to drift apart. This ripped my heart apart and I went on a ride filled with emotions. It took me quite awhile to get back on track because, I still remember clearly that we drifted when I was Poly Year 1, which was two years back.

But thank god, he chose to came back this Christmas Eve and even surprised me.

I'll save the surprise for some day later. For now, he's leaving again, tmrw and god knows when will he ever come back again. I'll miss you, every single one of you.

2011

2011-12-25T17:31:00.002+08:00

You know, in less than a weeks time, 2011 is coming to an end. I really hope for a better year in 2012.

Clique

2011-12-22T22:55:00.008+08:00

Reading through my old blog posts (which are locked up now), just remind me of how havoc was I in the past. But then again, it also reminded me how close was I to that clique that I always rely on whenever I met troubles - be it relationship, family, friendship or whatsoever.

You know, clique stands for a bunch of good friends always hanging out together (in my personal definition). I used to hangout with this clique, my favourite clique, when I was in secondary school. I met one of them when I was like sec1? He was like a brother to me, his name is WL. He asked me out whenever he was with his friends and that's how the rest of the clique slowly came into my life. All of them treated me like a little sister of theirs, forever there for me when I needed someone to vent anger, to cry to, or to listen to my rants. They're always the one who protect me and the one who taught me what's worth fighting for.

But things changes when we slowly drift apart. The journey of getting over the fact that I lost them was terrible. I looked upon them as my elder siblings, somehow. And I cried none stop when I realised that we drifted apart. Nonetheless, I still overcome it but it took me damn long. I used to have tons of pictures with them but they're all stored in my HP laptop which is what my dad's currently using. I don't get to see my dad often because he's working in JB. But memories are the best pictures that are always stored in my mind.

Thank god, last week Lf returned home and she invited us over to catch up. It was great, really great. Been two years since I last saw any of them, I missed them dearly. By knowing that their leading a good life now, ease my mind. Everyone is busy with their working schedule and Lf's busy with her two adorable kids. I thank god for their well doings. And know what. It was such a last minute decision of catching up at wee hours and it turns out good. Guess last minute decision always turns out better than planned.

Lastly, I wish you all, all the best for your upcoming future. Especially ZT. I waiting for your red bomb! Hahaha!

#Gushcloud

2011-12-22T21:42:00.004+08:00

Looking at the online social network - Facebook, Twitter. Guess what's in the trend now? Gushcloud.

I swear it's kinda addictive when you first join cause I finally joined after hearing numerous of my friends talking about it but not knowing wth was that (don't call me wols). Well, it's time for you people, who don't have as well, to join me gushing!

http://gushcloud.com/cloud/31006

It's fun, I swear. Plus you get to earn money by just tweeting, sharing posts and just like Facebook. I guess it doesn't work like Nuffnang but both has got something in common, earning money.

Happy gushing ~

Hello again

2011-12-22T12:09:00.000+08:00

Livejournal will forever be my personal blog whereas Blogger you'll be daily diary ♥